Trying to still shine
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Hey everybody!
Wow first of all I am really sorry that my posts have been a little hit or miss recently. My pain, depression and acne have all flared together like a tag team and though I am trying to still shine I have needed to step back a little.
It can be so easy to get sucked into numbers of people reading your blog and who is following on Instagram and how many are subscribed on You Tube! But I do have to remind myself that this is not a job, I share on here because I want to keep trying to still shine my light out into the world.
I am not here to make money I want to help people who are going through the same things as me and occasionally I need to remind myself of that. I needed a few days off to reassess but we are back now woot woot!
It is my birthday in a few days, and usually I love birthdays I always arrange something to do with family and I enjoy it. However, this time last year we lost my Grandmother it was just days before my birthday and to be honest its hard to deal with even now.
I find myself gazing at her picture or chatting away as if she is right here because I hate to think that I won’t get a cuddle again in this life. I know her spirit is around me and I often feel her close, but it just is not the same. Usually I can cope but at the moment it is kind of difficult though I am trying to still shine.
I have had a hard week with my depression, and because of that I have been a little of a hermit. I try not to hide away but often when I am struggling I don’t want to talk to people I just want to cuddle up with Gizmo my dog and relax. So this birthday I am spending some time with a couple of friends, but nothing crazy and having a quiet day.
Do you have any tips for coping when you lose someone close to a special occasion? How do I stop the day and the run up to it just being a reminder that I miss that person and get my shine back?
Namaste xxx
I teamed up with BetterHelp for this article if you are struggling and need someone to talk to they provide online therapy services
4 Comments
Lee Good
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Hope you are feeling in better spirits.
Loving your new site look and your new twitter picture.
I agree – don’t get hung up on social media numbers there are many people, including me who look forward to your videos and posts.
Your Grandma did not ever want you to forget her and ensured it by when she died, don’t you think.
Keep on shining to the world.
BeverleyButterfly
You are such a supportive and kind friend I am so thankful that we met, thank you for these kind words xx
Terri, Reclaiming HOPE
Happy birthday Beverley! I hope you’re able to enjoy your special day. I know it must be hard to have lost your Grandmother so close to your birthday. I feel sure she would want you to remember all of your good times together and how much she loved you on your birthday and always.
I know what you mean about getting sucked into numbers, but honestly, if you help even one person through what you write, it’s worth it, isn’t it? You are a bright light sweet friend. Shine on!
BeverleyButterfly
Thank you so much this means so much to me and I will try my hardest to just think of the good times and keep shining xxx